Detatch - An Introduction

This is strictly informal.

form this point on, i will be typing how i see fit, weather skipping capital letters, using punctuation/chopping words to show how i speak (rather than how the english language specifies), misspelling words, or in any other way not giving a damn.

that being said, i guess it's typical i introduce myself.

i'm a relatively simple man, though currently (as of starting this thing) a Lcpl in the United States Marine Corps, HOWEVER i want to make it VERY clear, i do NOT represent the United States, the Department of Defense, the Department of the Navy, the Marine Corps, or ANYTHING/ANYONE other than myself.

there's not much to be said, i'm 19 (for one more month), i am very blunt, i think more deeply into things than i probably should, i am very cynical (especially with humanity as a whole), and i've got a lot going on at the moment. i've put together a "family" of my own over the last 4 years, throughout which we've all gone through hell and back.

i'm currently dealing with a shit-ton of problems with my current shop (military term - work place), i have issues going on back home which are not for the general public unless i decide to put something out on here, and i'm also dealing with a lot from my past (most of which i don't consciously remember).

i'm not exactly that close (nor on the best of terms) with the majority of my biological family, and there have been issues (some major ones in some cases) with them in the past. needless to say, my "family" DOES include some of my biological relations in most cases. however, usually if i say "family" it's referring mostly to the family i put together from scratch.

i know things i probably shouldn't, i've been in a lot of situations i shouldn't have been in, let alone survived... the majority of my "family" that i pieced together out of scratch has fallen apart over the last couple years, and half of the "new additions" haven't exactly been what they pretended to be. i have issues sleeping, and right now my shop is trying to have me charged (again, it's a military thing) for them, but i'm talking to the right people and filing the right paperwork to cover my own ass, and get the issues resolved. i've been told it's unbelievable how i've held everything (especially myself) together with everything that is happening and has in the past, but it's become only second nature.

i also have memory issues, so bear with me.

my fuse is extremely short, and my charge is extremely hot. however i have an insane amount of self control. i've had plenty of practice.

first and foremost, it's "family first" with me. my top priority is my loved ones. i think deeply, i know what i'm doing, i'm confident in my thoughts and actions (because i think more deeply, carefully, quickly, and often than most about aspects most don't even bother with), and i've experienced a little of almost everything. and now, i'm trying to be more open about everything.

i don't judge, otherwise i'd be condemning my own soul (RECENTLY ACQUIRED!!) to the darkest deepest depths of hell to dig a couple new basements to live in. that being said, i have "family" that ranges from "bible-thumpers" all the way to "devil-warshipers" and those from sexual interest in their own gender, to those with no interest at all, those who only pick from the greener side, and even in some cases that prefer outside their own species. i do not judge (except on basic human stupidity and/or ignorance), and i call it how it is.

(NOTE: i also have a VERY twisted sense of humor.)

where i am (both literally and metaphorically) in life makes it difficult to get into/maintain any sort of legitimate relationship, but i've been playing with the idea of another relationship for a while. due to my past i have "detachment issues" and either find it hard to get attached to people, i make a "fake-attachment" to people, or can get attached to people in an extremely mild way, but can quickly and easily detach from them. this, would be the reason why i took the name "Detatch." the second "T" in Detatch symbolizes that i do things my own way to get the job done (people that can't pronounce english words they havn't heard would pronounce it correctly, right?) one way or another. simplicity. efficiency. progression. three principles to apply to every action.

there are only a few that over the years have developed a lasting bond with me, and it's been solidified with most of them through testing just how strong those strings are. they are my family, and they are my number one priority.

i'm also into cars. BIG TIME. the one thing that's not a part of the "darker side of life" i tend to be a part of is my cars (which end up getting involved on occasion with the "darker side" if i get too bored/anxious/feel like playing "chess" with the local cops).

also, i LOVE drift. as with my views on religion, values/morals, and politics, i'm rather unorthodox when it comes to drifting as well. i drift FF. i love tiny little 2-door tuners, and getting them sideways at considerable speeds. my pride and joy (as far as cars go that is) is a 94 toyota celica gt, and she's getting a WRC engine VERY soon, with an E-153 LSD tranny soon to follow, with a shit-ton of other mods to reach a goal of 500whp on FF. my other baby right now is my 94 saturn sc1 (full stock, but SO many memories and good times in that car)...

BUT, as with anything in life, there is a catch. though i am not currently in a relationship, i have been talking to someone back home that things are going well with. the focus with the cars at the moment is performance and fun, but if things continue progressing with (in here i will refer to her as) "Liz" (who is somehow, slowly but surely, getting past my attachment issues), the focus will have to shift to safety and reliability. that, and a child-proof interior, as her 2 month old baby girl would also become a rather large part of my life.

that's about all there is to me, aside from the more extreme side of me which you (the reader) will probably see very shortly....

thought/quote - i will TRY to throw one in with every post, though idk how often i will be posting, let alone remembering this part. this one happens to be in regards to those i hold close, and actually give a shit about.
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"To Those Who Think,
To Those Who Dare,
To Those Who Do,
To Those Who Succeed."